I too Isabella have had these feelings more often than i care to admit. But , I have learned through this precious gift we call Christian Science that a knowledge of who we are in God is sufficient.
In my life I have been knocked down and the only love I could ever count on was the love of Father-Mother God. When I used to cry myself to sleep the only thing I could count on was God loved me in spite of my supposed mistakes. I say this to bring out an important point. See , for me when these erroneous thoughts of inadequecies came to my thoughts it would make me stop and think about the unconditional love God has showed me.
If not for that love I know I would not be here tonight to write to you… Thus, if i allowed these thoughts of being ugly or less than perfect in , I would be calling Father-Mother God a liar. In essence saying that their love was not enough… I could never hurt God that way.
Another way that i have found to overcome these thoughts is to develop a heart of gratefulness. When these voices/thoughts bombarded me I would think of five things I am grateful for. This would alleviate the false sense of heaviness. And thus , my eyes would open to a brighter way of thinking. No its not an easy path but, it is one well worth the effort.
Also I too recommend Psalms they are a diary of every human need and emotion. Psalm 91 is a part of my daily devotions for it is the promises of God to me and you. Don’t just read them , claim them they are yours. We all seek love but the only place we can really get that from is in God. I don’t know if this helps but know your in my thoughts Isabella.

Hi Isabella — I’ve always liked MBE’s response to the question “What am I?” : “I am able to impart truth, health, and happiness, and this is my rock of salvation and my reason for existing.” Don’t doubt your ability to be a blessing to others :)

We can always be grateful for moments of light in our lives, and then move forward knowing that there are bigger blessings awaiting us — as certainly as the sun rises. Keep listening for those angels, you can’t be separated from the source of all good!

Peter

Isabella, I feel like each of the things you listed are things that I pray about a lot, too! One idea I also pray with a lot is the idea of the children of Israel walking through the wilderness into the promised land. The promised land represents the fulfillment of all our hopes, dreams, ambitions, and so on. And the wilderness represents loneliness, darkness, and doubt about those things. The children of Israel were in the wilderness for an awfully long time, too. But God made all of it come to fruition.

When you read the whole story, you can see some incredible transformations take place. At the beginning of the story Moses is extremely timid, insecure, and is always running away from his responsibilities. By the end of the story he has gained such courage, strength, peace, conviction, and satisfaction. And his immediate successor, Joshua, has learned so much from him and rises to even greater heights because of him.

The children of Israel are constantly complaining about how difficult and unfair everything is, but I think the point of the story is to show us how to overcome that. And it takes remarkable amounts of patience, humility, persistence, and a refusal to give up, but God does keep all His promises.